♥ Thursday, May 21, 2009
START MISSING HIM AGAIN !
Hihi (:
hais .. Y do i still hav this weird feeling in me whnhe had already given up on me? Wad am i suppose to do? I really do love him ... He makes me worry about him everyday, jus wanna ask wads his doing, who's hes with,do he still love me? ):
He jus makes me worry sick about him . Jus feel like dying, already starts to suffer pain . My heart jus feels like a many needles was trying to pierce through my heart .........
Jus hate this feeling so much ):
I love him .. yet he don't . After all i've gave in, so this is wad i will get in return . I should hav not know u in the first place ... His face jus keep on appearing on my mind every single sec . I was jus hoping that it rains so that i can cry in the rain without anyone knowing, without anyone noticing ):
Really feel like giving up, but i jus cant do it ... Knowing u was really the biggest mistake i've ever make . Now that im hurt, still i cant forget about u .... U may love other girl deeply, wad i gav up on, do u really cant feel it? I was really hurt . My heart is wounded . Jus feels like giving up life . But i cant .. Every single second, my mind jus hav the appearance of ur face popping out of nowher . Whn tat happens, i jus wanna hit my head and jus wanna knock myself out . So that i wun be crying infront of my classmates or fren or even family ... I dun wan them to worry for me! Still i love you ...
NOW NOW NOW! I miss my first dar ): I regret ever breaking up wif him . He treats me well, treats me the BEST OF ALL ! Yet i dun understand love at that time ... So i dun really care about love that time . But now i understand and im hurt by another guy . Now thn i noe that ur the best dar i've got in my WHOLE LIFE! I jus miss u too much . I regret not sharing my feelings to u ... Not treating u the love of my life like how u treated me as the best . Feels that life doesn't mean a thing to me anymore . I've lost jus too many things jus becos of me caring too much for smth or ignore too much about smth . Mayb ignoring and caring too much jus make everything goes bad to worse .. So i decided not to care too much and not to ignore so much . So jus come bac by my side . I need u badly ... Really really in need of u .. U may not understand how much i really need u . But if u get bac wif me, i will treat u well ): I jus wan u be bac by my side to protect me, to care for me, to love me . Pls .... Wher is ur love for me? Im gonna find it out . So read this and understand me???
Really plss .. Understand me? And love me again?
ENDS here .
buhbyes
Gwen.C :]
